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๐๏ธ The Caucasus and What Comes Next
๐๏ธ After returning to Russia, I went to the Caucasus. I lived in Krasnaya Polyana and traveled to Abkhazia. Iโve loved the mountains for a long time โ and the time I spent among them turned out to be truly unforgettable. They are vast, quiet, ancient. Thereโs something in them that words canโt quite catch: you stand at their feet and feel your own scale fall back into place. Mountains donโt press down on you โ they return you to proportion.
๐ From time to time, I would come down to the sea. The Black Sea is, of course, not Southeast Asia โ a different water, a different air, a different density of life. But it has its own quiet charm, especially when you return to it after weeks in the mountains. The contrast between altitude and coastline became a practice of its own: up โ toward silence, down โ toward the open horizon.
๐บ๏ธ Now Iโm looking further ahead. I want to travel through Europe โ Spain, Portugal. These countries have been calling me for a long time, with their ocean, their light, their unhurried pace, their particular culture of living. And at the same time, I deeply want to return to Southeast Asia โ to Thailand, which has already become part of me, and to finally visit Vietnam, a country Iโve been drawn to for a while.
โจ But honestly โ Iโm grateful for any journey and for what it opens up. The road has long stopped being just movement between points. Itโs a way of staying alive, staying receptive, of continuing to meet the world and myself with curiosity โ again and again.
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๐ด Three Years in Thailand
๐๏ธ Three years of my life unfolded in Thailand. I spent most of that time in Phuket โ it became my home, my anchor, the place I kept returning to between journeys. Seven months I lived on Koh Phangan โ an island many know as a place of power: the silence of the jungle, the ocean, and that particular density of people searching for themselves. Phangan gave me depth. Phuket gave me rhythm and stability.
๐ Phangan turned out to be a truly unusual place for me. I practiced breathwork and led breathing sessions for others. I went to ecstatic dance โ where the body becomes the primary language, and movement reveals what words canโt reach. ๐ I traveled across the island, made trips to neighboring Koh Samui. There I met many friends โ people from different nationalities and cultures, and that turned out to be deeply valuable for me: even though Iโm an introvert, Iโm genuinely drawn to people, to their inner worlds, to the different ways they inhabit reality.
๐๏ธ I traveled through the north of the country โ Chiang Mai, mountain villages, the slower and more contemplative side of Thailand. I lived for a while in Bangkok โ a completely different world: dense, loud, layered. ๐ A megacity where you learn to stay collected inside the chaos.
๐ Over these years I moved through several important cycles. There was the experience of starting a business with friends โ with all the challenges that come when you build something with close people in a foreign country. There was a relationship that began here and ended here โ and that too became part of the path, part of growing up. I found new friends โ people with whom real contact formed, not just the usual expat scene.
๐ง It was on the island that I found a new profession โ and a new sense of meaning. Itโs a profession that lives at the intersection of neurophysiology, psychology, quantum mechanics, and cybernetics โ where the workings of the brain, the psyche, the nature of consciousness, and the principles of feedback in living systems meet. ๐ Alongside life by the ocean, I studied online and trained in the Open Dialogue method โ a practice of group and individual process work in which, through honest contact, presence, and attention to the body, people return to themselves and find a way out of difficult states. The method rests on the principle of health as conscious communication โ with your own body, with others, with reality itself. It became a rare combination: the Thai environment, the ocean, the silence โ and serious inner work that I immersed myself in day after day. ๐๏ธ I began leading groups, intensives, and one-on-one sessions โ online with participants from different countries, and offline with those who happened to be nearby.
โฟ In parallel, since 2022, Iโve been working with crypto โ another important channel that helped me live, earn, and remain free to choose where to be and what to do.
๐บ๏ธ I kept discovering new places โ both on Phuket itself, which turned out to be far deeper than its tourist surface, and across the country. Every trip was less a movement through space and more a way of expanding my inner map.
๐ I tried new food โ Thai cuisine became its own form of art for me. I learned to cook it myself, experimented. ๐ I spent time with Thai people, picked up the local dialect at a conversational level, learned the key words that open doors and hearts. In parallel, I worked on my English โ most of my communication was with an international, English-speaking audience, and that became a natural school of the language.
โจ Three years in Thailand isnโt the story of a tourist, and it isnโt the story of an emigrant. Itโs the story of a person who came here to search โ and found a new profession, new people, a new language of body and perception, and a new relationship with himself.
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